Fear

You know I once read something that says : the enemy outside can do us no harm . The true enemy is within ourselves ! and as I was living in the routine watching myself becoming more lazy day by day, I understood that I am harming myself. I used to train 3 times a week and look at me now : I barely move from my bed. Apart from preparing dinner and washing dishes , I do nothing ...
I was thinking if this is how I want to spend the rest of my days , and the answer was no. I hate the current lazy me. I hate it when I am too stressed and all I do is eating. You know I had the habit of wasting my time chatting and talking to people but then I quit that habit and now I have so much time that I wanna use in a good way.
I am loosing myself but not in working hard like eminem said , I am loosing it in doing nothing just like Patrick.
so.... I decided to write about it like old days to tell everyone that i am being negative and reveal the truth that I am not supporting myself so I would hate that more and change it