Hi! I'd second every single word in your post, but without mentioning a fictional person. Could it be YOU (and not god or pink unicorn) who doesn't want to "keep living your life according to what society is expecting"
As far as I remember, all gods and religions always demanded from their followers not to think too much and accept everything given in old ignorant books for higher truths))
Be more self assured, you'll be successful in every possible way without that kind of imaginary friends! Love, @libertarianuts