I lived the coldest nights the most intense seconds

I lived the coldest nights the most intense seconds
With that resounding goodbye I saw my world collapse
The nightmare began and on the ground I went again
Between alcohols and pills to anesthetize my mind
I inevitably thought of you without you present
Fearing to find out or to see you in arms with other people
Unconscious muddled thoughts flashed through my mind
That can become a crazy delinquent
You did not act correctly nor did you speak truthfully
Who induced you have never visited your happiness
They manipulated you softly with that cold cynicism
Telling you that there is no life or future next to me
You looked more at the mistakes that I made some day
But you never noticed what I lost for you
They control everything about you, because their reasonable unconsciousness
Speak with such disappointment, I know that it made you person