I could address this post point by point, but what’s the point? As in this one example...your feeling guilty at the GOE and not making time for yourself was just that—your guilt that comes from inside you, and your not feeling worthy enough to invest in yourself what’s important to you. There is no one to blame but you! It’s all yours! Every point you made has a thread of awareness behind it if you can only stop to see through all your complaining. I know you are capable of this--I have witnessed you.

All of the things on the surface that are upsetting you are only symptoms of deeper seated issues. You seem incredibly disturbed, especially enough to spend a couple of weeks writing up all the horrible things you have going on in your life that you want to attribute to Quinn and the Garden of Eden. We all know it’s not about Quinn or the Garden of Eden, but the vibration you carry that makes you experience life from the perspective of which you do.

You are unaware of so many of the facts that pertain to the situations you have spoken of in this blog. Circumstances are not what they seem yet you so easily twist them to make them appear as if Quinn is the bad guy because you need him to be that for you so you can get away from yourself. He isn’t the bad guy, the bad guy is in you, manifesting your reality in alignment with who you are and the way you see the world is what’s unfolding in your own perception.

Our experiences of Quinn are so different that the way he appears to each of us is obviously viewed through our own filters. He is not who you say he is—and not who I say he is either. He is simply Quinn and shows up in life as his own authentic self—not someone you’re trying to make him into. Who are you anyway to decide who or how he should be and what everyone else should think about him? There’s something very screwy about that that would be wise to address with yourself.

"When I get angry I ask myself why this is triggering me and how can I respond to get more of what I want.”

Taking your own advice right now would be another wise thing to do LaVonne. You triggered yourself right out the gate! It’s also wise to ask yourself why are you in alignment with this.

You did create your reality. Your perspective obviously comes from a wounded soul and thus your experience follows suit.

Extreme circumstances often come to you so you have plenty to, and do, complain about. This is just a larger example of your complaining about not getting what you want, and having manifested another family you have pushed away (like your parents, children, ex, cousins, aunts, uncles, brothers…..) so you didn’t really have to feel love too much. You’re so scared of love and what you’ll find if you dig deeper, that you are willing to throw it all down the drain and attempt putting the spotlight on someone else to drag them down so you don’t have to examine yourself and so others won’t see you. We see you Lavonne—you’re definitely being seen!

"If the communication takes place with someone who is basically ill, sick from poor diet and sleep to the point of losing control of their emotions, can real communication actually take place?"

Too close to losing control of your emotions that you couldn’t communicate, but had to silently run out in the night! No communication either until you started hiding behind these posts.

"My children are not here to serve my ego."

And neither are “friends”. Your begging our friends behind our backs for outside validation for the poor LaVonne life you’ve created yourself is obvious, and extremely dishonorable. If you didn’t like it here, you could have just put down your finger pointer and moved on to something else.

But no, you’re not really done with the GOE….you needed to use us and take some time to grab some attention first from a public venue using Quinn’s name. Look at me! Look at me!!!

Just a few of the boosts you give yourself.“"I am a strong, resilient, capable, intelligent and a very powerful woman. In my heart I have felt this way about myself for many years….these things in addition to beautiful, loving, compassionate, gentle, etc…”

You could stop wasting your time that you insist is so precious. and take the steps to create the most amazing life you’ve ever had. Do a better job for yourself so you have no one else to blame.

You could stop f*cking blaming everyone else for your problems and your experience. YOU are responsible for your own happiness. You’re slipping back into the old habits of blame and using them as a justification for treating other people this way. You think you’re returning a favor but you’re really just digging yourself deeper into displaying your own true self, and harming others in the wake of your own destruction.

"If I want the world to be a more loving place then I must be love."

There is no reason to stay at a place for years and then complain about the people and the things you were a part of, and the free life you were given. You didn’t have to take what we shared with you, you didn’t have to do anything but what moved you.

“Taking responsibility for all of my experiences is probably the single most important thing I learned from Quinn.”

You obviously aren’t putting it into practice. You didn’t have to wait to build up animosity, anger and many depths of deception, you simply could have honorably left any time you wanted, or duh….talked about it! Taken responsibility.

"If I want the world to be a more loving place than I must be love.'

'The more I become love the more I attract love.'

As I’ve told you before there is nothing loving about this. This is self-serving and to get support for your victim mentality. You’re delusional if you think you are helping anyone, or doing this from a place of love. All you have done and actually attempted to do is deceive, and destroy.

One can’t be love with all that deception, jealousy, lying, back stabbing, judgment, fear, unworthiness, hiding and intentional harming of others.

"No one is exempt from the Laws of the Universe.”

I agree! Karma is real!

“Perhaps I overreacted so I can play out my victim story in my head.”
“I subconsciously created this situation so I can continue my own cycle of needing to find safety.”

Bingo! - at least those are two of the aspects in the bigger picture to look at. You won’t get away easily with the “nevertheless…” perspective.

I hope your new life affords you all the time you need for introspection. This is a deep one!

Even blaming Riley!!! Oh brother!!