Maybe he loves me

I'm 13 years old, I fell in love with him at first sight. He is 14. We are studying in parallel classes. It was 1 year in our school. Children from different schools began to study at a new school. As if to say, my former classmates also moved, with them I had a bad relationship. We quarreled a lot, swore. I always went alone. I liked the new school more than in the former school. I met many people, I became friends with new friends. I can be very different, I can be very cheerful to the point of insanity, I can be very quiet and withdrawn. He was almost the most famous of all 6-7-8 classes. He liked to communicate, get acquainted. Sometimes even there were rumors that he was smoking. But this is not true. He already had girls and first kisses. Some of it is considered a womanizer. Its appearance is pretty beautiful, it's slightly taller than me. Our flavors are lonely. In October, I wrote to him. He is not like everyone thinks. He asked me to throw off my photo, that he would find me and hug me, he also asked me to kiss my cheek. I was embarrassed and very happy. In the morning I got up and went to school, but it was not what I expected. Probably he told my friends-my former classmates. One of them dragged me to him. On the one hand I sensed a catch, on the other I thought that she just wants to show me to him or even introduce him. I could not cope with my thoughts and just stood and soprativlyalas. He saw me and maybe he thought that I did not want to get acquainted with him. Since then we have not communicated, I was very sad and I hated myself that I did not come to him immediately at the first moment. I think he just does not communicate with me in order not to spoil his reputation, with this he is wrong. Sometimes he looks at me, tries to attract some attention to himself, well, I do not know for sure. This happens only when there is no one with him. Yesterday we had a joint physical-ra. I was without form and was sitting with my friend. He played football. After a while he sat a little closer to me and it was very strange since next to me were still my former classmates. My friend knows that I love him, she is very good at thinking, and she wanted to draw my attention to him. She began to chat about our favorite anime and books that he likes. He sometimes turned and just looked and listened to what we were talking about, as if he wanted to join the conversation. Then in the middle before us sat a former one-shot, and began to touch his hand. In seconds, he just got up and left. The one sitting in the middle of us also went to her. And my friend whispered in my ear that he was looking at me. I do not know how to cope with the thoughts, maybe I like him.