I lost a child. How to live further?

God forbid anyone to experience what I experienced.

Pregnancy was very welcome. I 23. my husband 26. prepared for almost a year. I was observed in paid and handed over all analyzes. has thrown off 18kg, since full and the doctor has allowed to become pregnant.

Pregnancy was quick, I think thanks to tests for ovulation.

Pregnancy lasted the last months well, no nausea, no temperature, no bleeding. I experienced these symptoms three times at 6,12,15 weeks. I was in the hospital. The detachment was not found, the analyzes were normal. No obvious and congenital health problems.

Paul we found out in 16 weeks. SONS ... MY FAVORITE ... I already began to prepare things for the baby from the week of 20, which I sewed myself and knitted, I bought a lot ... Everything is blue almost.

at 1 and 2 screenings everything was fine !!! baby is healthy, only low placenta previa. 4cm from the cervix. promised that it would rise to 30 weeks, I waited. the fetus was low and across in the hips, the height of the uterus at the time of 24 weeks was 22cm.

from 22 weeks went a big increase in weight, + 3.6kg in 2 weeks, then + 1.5kg yet. like there were swelling, but not great. The doctor in the zhk has registered a heap of tablets in day hofitol, kanefron, magnelis б6 on 6шт everyone. the pains in a perineum have begun, the back began to hurt or be ill; be sick.

at the reception in 24.2 a week, I told the doctor all this. on what she said defended the nerve, let her husband do the massage. I asked: "Do I exactly bear the child? chtoto much at me problems? !!! "on what the doctor, even not looking me and not directing or in a hospital or on uzi, has told or said, where you will get to ....

but I'm gone ...

in 24.5 weeks at 19.00 I fell ill belly, I went to the toilet and it became easier for me. I thought it was just constipation. I went to bed at 21.30 I felt perturbations.

woke up at 1.00 of the desire to go to the toilet for a large, but nothing happened ... then the blood went ... my husband and I went to the hospital. the blood was not very abundant. I was hoping to save him ... at home I had a hemostatic injection and papaverine.

the road is not close. in the maternity hospital, I ended up at 3.10. there was my doctor on duty on duty. she was called and she looked me. a piece of meat and blood remained on the glove ... I realized that this was the end ... but I struggled as best I could.

They called the duty officer on the clan and she said full disclosure. it was a verdict.

then I moved to rodzal and just lay on the birth table, gushing clear waters. doctors started screaming for birth, there were no contractions. I began to push. and the doctor still shouted 300gr you can not give birth !!! I was vserovno who that yells ... I tried ... the baby was walking with legs ... it was harder to give birth to a head. I could not take it, I saw only my head and cried ....

called my husband and said that the son of the dead was born.

then in the morning they told me that there was nothing to take. but my family and husband were taken and buried without me.

grandmother, mother and mother-in-law said that the baby was 1KG AND MORE !!! GROWTH MORE THAN 30SM.

of course, he was a month ago at the second screening was 400g at 20.5 weeks. I myself am large. said it's the norm.

in the end, I was in the maternity hospital for 4 days. Of course, I was not paid any attention, only a tablet of analgin and antibiotic.

Leukocytes were raised in childbirth, they said on the first day - that the infection. I explained that I was not ill.

on the second and third day they said that he had worked on the umbilical cord. double hanging. in childbirth was a single.

Then AGAIN AND AGAIN HAVE WRITTEN ME WITHOUT DOCUMENTS ....

in the hospital they did not even give out an extract. as if I had come to do a manicure.

in the morgue they said they would tell in secret only. Paper can not give! in general neither the conclusion on autopsy nor histology will be given to me ...

Hand washing the hand. One for all and all for one.

right now, 11 days later I started to feel. the milk was almost out of steam. I feel good, which is even strange. as the birth immediately became easier. from the maternity home came and immediately -5 kg. right now, another -3.5kg.

it's not my intention to drop my hands. already I get the remains of folic and vitamin E. We will again prepare for conception.

although the doctor refused to examine me and said I and the baby were healthy, I will now be observed in a paid clinic and I will give all the necessary tests.

and God grant health to my "doctor" from ZhK ...

and in the hospital even better ...

month after the screening passed. And the term is 21 weeks in all! as...