Love's stories; TIMIDITY IS A PROBLEM

My name is Slomith, I am 15 years old and I am in my second year of high school. I am very shy to express my feelings, especially if they are love topics. I am not one of the people who talk a lot with friends, but they talk to me.

Last year I arrived at the new school to do my high school these four years to go to university. At first I liked a boy named Eduardo and I liked him for a month and I wanted to forget about him because he made fun of me about how he was and that made me feel bad (I have low self-esteem).

Time passed. In the same year in May, approximately, I liked another one called Manuel but I liked two months. I also wanted to forget it because I had a girlfriend and from there I thought that I would never have luck in love.

But it changed a whole day. There was a child of my own course who was leaving with me on the school bus and, suddenly, I felt that he was different with me, he saw me in a special way, although I did not even talk to him and suddenly he began to attract me and I ended up falling in love with him. the. That's how they started every day and I started to find out if they could like it.

His name is Maikel, and I remember he always looked at me when we went on the bus. He stroked my hair at school a few times, he always looked at me and always caught him watching me, he always tried to graze me when he passed by me, and one day I started to find out how to know if a person liked me and things coincided and I'm sure he likes me.

One day he was standing looking at one of those school ceremonies and his friend said to him: "Look, there is the Slomith" and I turned around and they were silent.

Well at the end of the year I wanted to confess because I was happy to have someone who wanted me, but I ran out of time and went on vacation and told him by chat. He did not answer but the read came out and I was disconnected because they took me to the emergency room. I felt bad and I was sick and I spent all summer thinking about what I would do when I returned from vacation.

March came the other year and they left us all in the yard to distribute us to the classrooms. I saw him and I saw him looking for me, but I was a fool because he always waited for me to approach him, but because of my shyness until today I have not talked to him and I have noticed that he is more in love with me and I feel bad for having excited him and I do not know what to do anymore.

I went on a winter vacation. It's two weeks and this week it showed that he loves me. Every time I ask him something or he asks me he gives me his smile.

So far I have done as if I had never written the message, but I am sorry I did not say anything.

The last day of school before the winter holidays I was sad I thought to speak with him and I could not. We were doing a conviviality in my course and I felt sad and I went to the bathroom to cry. The others noticed that she was missing and they were looking for me. I had to leave and go back to the classroom and I noticed that he was looking at me. At the end of the day he returned the headphones that I lent him with a smile and that was the only thing that made me smile.

I love him so much, I already fulfilled a year in love with him and now when I come back from classes ... what can I do?