Hi @sostrin! I am really very impressed by your enlightening post and you. You're a very beauitiful, kind, divine soul and you are shining like a star from your selfless nature. ☺ I am very glad that you choosed the path of surrender instead of giving-up.
There is a blessing of more life surrounding you now.
Let it settle, let it implement. You don't have much to do, you see. In the space of being present, what's meant to find you always does.
It's space of being the empty vessel. You just let life happen through you ~ yet life still happens beautifully. ☺💚🌟