These two have always been really hard for me.

And it is actually because my mother induced a fear of success AND a fear of failure. Its hard to work towards something when you feel you are undeserving. (so, fix that first)

After that... it has only become, i hope bitcoin goes to the moon.

Because the goals i have are either

1. really minimal
2. not achievable (not even if i win Powerball-lottery)

However, the "not achievable" is the type where you have to get investors. One person rarely has that kind of capital.

Well, anyways, thanks for continuing to write about this stuff while i work through the emotions that hold me back.