What is It That You Desire?
So today's my birthday. To be honest, I wasn't as thrilled as I was before. Back when I was younger, the month before my birthmonth will be filled with excitement plannibg what I would do for myself. Then I'd have a full month during my birthmonth trying to make myself feel special. So self-centered, I know. But what can I do? That was how society trained me to feel about birthdays.
It might be because of old age (or age catching up on me or whatever), for sone reason, I don't feel like doing anything on my birthday. Well, at least nothing too extravagant or loud or booze-filled celebrations.
I actually have celebrated it a couple of minutes ago. I gave myself a nice long bath time, gave myself an uniterrupted coffee time, and watched my favorite series while finishing up my latest crochet project.
When I became a full time stay at home mom, these things became luxury to me. I actually hed to make sure the kid goes to sleep early, all the clothes have been folded, ironed, and put away, the dishes washed and the house cleaned before I started with my luxurious me time.
I just have this guilt inside of me that keeps on nagging whenever I sit down to relax when there are unfinished chores in the house. I guess that's really how it is when you're a mom. But today, I'm not giving in to that guilt. hehe. Because I made sure everything is done before my birthday.
And today, all I desire is to have a good time with the two most important persons in my life. My daughter and my husband. So much for alcohol and food and gifts. Because five years ago, I received my first wish - to be married to the man I love. And three years ago, I was given the one thing I desire most - to become a mom. And I was given a really amazing daughter. Yeah she's witty (a little too witty sometimes) it's like I'm dealing with a smaller version of me every single day. But I wouldn't have it any other way.
I'm not excited about partying on my birthday. Maybe it's because of the thought that I'm getting older. You can say that. I literally just refused an invitation for an all you can eat seafood buffet.
But I think it has something to do with me receiving the things I desire most in life. And right now, all I can think of is making sure I take care of these precious gifts. So yeah. Happy birthday to me.
Happy birthday, now the things you value are different, and you have close to who really matters, enjoy every moment and let life flow.
Thanks. I guess with age sometimes does come maturity. And contentment. And purpose. :)
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Nice post. My desire is to think clearly and to help other people think clearly 🙂🖐️
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