No worries about voting. Let us skip it through the further conversation:)

Thank you for taking again your time with me.

Interesting, what you say about your dad. At least he talked a little about it. I hope that he over time got some support through therapy or self help groups.

Yes, your free writes are your personal method to work on what's important for you. I like it a lot.

There is a certain strange irony in the term "American dream," isn't there? After all, you can wake up from a dream at some point. Making it from dishwasher to millionaire is such a fairy tale and I wonder why it still gets so diligently dreamed. A Zen master would probably say that dishwashing is the essence of being. Which for me means something like treating my belongings with respect and having nothing but food and a roof over my head is something I can appreciate.

We don't know what's going to happen. It seems the best thing to do is to keep your heart free of hate and envy. There is no guarantee that the standard of living will remain the same or even improve. I'm not even sure if I can look at my life plan in such a way that things have improved or worsened for me. Too many factors play a role in this. ...

I want to be of service and to show other examples and give hope.