i just concluded in my mind that i'm here on a journey to get better. steemit has contributed positively to my personal develoment i should say and i have come across a lot of great contents that i wish i had a tangible upvote to give them, it would definitely be nice to have a tangible SP.

This is a lovely attitude and you can have an upvote here. I'm afraid there are just a ton of small users right now and I have a long waiting list for that level.