RE: By Losing Myself, I Found Myself
After thinking about it deeply, I don't think there is any unfairness on steemit. I understand the perceived unfairness, especially when some mediocre content gets a ridiculously high payout. It's frustrating. The more I look into it, the more I see why my inability to pull off the very same thing is largely because of inaction on my part. When I first heard about bitcoin, they were a couple cents for one. I told myself I didn't have enough money to invest. and I didn't. I was working landscaping for 9 dollars an hour and had a lot of bills. I probably could have thrown 50 dollars at it though. When I got a better job, I told myself that bitcoin was already 200 dollars. That I missed the boat. When I joined steemit a year ago, I didn't post much. I didn't network. I didn't have any bitcoin, so I couldn't buy any steem when it went down from $3.00 to $0.30. (I kick myself everyday for these decisions) If I wasn't so late to the party, my upvote would be worth $40 too. I probably wouldn't see anything wrong with up voting friends and family, even if the content was lacking. Someone would probably think I was conducting myself unfairly as well.
Oh yes, I definitely agree with you. The problem is (for me anyway) when I'm in one of my depressive fits, I don't accurately judge much of anything (including what is deemed fair or not) because I feel everything and everyone is against me. It's something I'm trying to overcome. It's a slow process and I'm very open in these journal types of posts, exposing a multitude of flaws in my thinking.
BTW - back in 2009 my ex and I were mining Bitcoins and he lost or threw away the hard drive that the coins were on when we moved. I think there were at least 50 or so... Haha.......tons of regrets there. :)