I think my main problem was that I was unsure what my "contract" is. But after what happened yesterday, it seems very clear to me now.

You will see that I was already thinking along these lines of yours for some time now. I also wrote this post not too long ago, https://steemit.com/post/@son-of-satire/why-is-son-of-satire-on-steemit, where I tried to answer the questions you just asked for myself.

I'm not so convinced I will get peace when I finish what I now believe the contract to be, however. And in truth, I am not sure that peace is even something I want anymore. It is change that I desire more than anything. Change for the better, within both myself and the world.

But then again, I see no reason why I could not soon develop the ability to be both at peace with myself and at war with my enemies. Let's hope that is the way it turns out.