Thank you my friend for mentioning me.
Your story makes me a little sad but also hopeful that you will find a way to deal with your problems and solve what can be solved without seeking distraction with the use of alcohol. Congratulations for being sober for 6 days now!! The demon gets smaller and smaller and the real you is coming back on surface ...that's beautiful. I truly wish you all the best ! ... keep fighting ..you will win...you won already :)