I think we definitely need to make Amsterdam next year. It's a solid goal that I have. I was feeling the same way about my posts. I'm not earning anything consistently but I'm earning and putting what I can into Steem Power because I believe in this site. One of the things I love about this platform is how encouraging people are. As we learn, we reach out our hands to help the next person and so on. No doubt you will become a whale, love. Just don't forget us minnows! ;)