I remember my journey through all this phase that you've outlined. It's like you copied my Steemit journey and summarize it in this post.
The fear,
The joy
The rage
Then self doubt when my post wasn't paying
Recovery
Acceptance
Reborn
Engagement gear engaged
And now, fight for the survival of the community.

I never knew my voice could have this much value just so soon. Long live the Steemit community.