Too much self-loathing man, you don't deserve it at all. But you deserve what's coming next - a chance to manage your money better.
To soothe your mind - most have it worse. In comparison to you being broke before and now having 80K (quick maffs 100K crypto - 20K fiat debt), I am still in massive home mortgage debt, as I also took only a few small moneys from my cryptos during the boom. Most guys are back to zero, you came out ahead :)
Let the healing commence!