Dear Diary: I Might Be Feeling the Effects Of My Parathyroid Medicine

It is around my fourth day of receiving my medicine in my system and I am quite sure the effects are playing part in the restoration of my lost strength which left my body for many gradual years. It is also quite a weird thing how my strength diminished over the course of the years. At first my capacity to carry around things, then my ability to get up from many positions, then the same but with stiffness, then the same again but with pain and the feeling that my body is a dead weight for myself to carry.

Little that I knew that there lies my little gland that already is transforming my body from a beautiful butterfly to flightless and fangless gorgoyle that you are seeing today. But my economic condition also played a role for my health as I cannot support myself with my extra medications and even my vitamins I cannot procure for myself and just tried to prioritize my dialysis for my survival.

My body kept on while my peers come and go which is sometimes my reason not to get friends with them because of course I would get depressed and miss them if they were the first to die. Better not to get an established friendship that I know might not last, physically that is. I tried to learn how to make myself feel better by learning the effects of many things for my health in dialysis and tried to assert, compensate, aid, supplement, and patch myself so that I could go on and reach that extra day of my life.

I am also trying to get myself on a strict diet. A phosphorus binder might be a good thing to take but I can't seem to find it in local drugstores here as if patients here doesn't have the same biological system like in the other countries and it is enraging me. But for now I will be observing this weird strength recovery that I am feeling and I can just notice it.

I hope in just couple of weeks or months there will be a dramatic improvement in my health. Although I know that #steemit can never support me to turn me again into a beautiful butterfly, I am just for now ok with regaining my strength back and wiping away my tears from pain.