Dear Diary: A Loss of Appetite is a Major Burden for Me Now

I am augmenting my diet with high calorie snacks and I will just try not to eat much of processed foods as they have much phosphates in them and it is not good for my body. My restricted diet gives me a small number of foods to choose from and these are just rice-based snacks and meats from chicken, pork, and or fish.

M taste to foods now are just flat as if you got scared and your tongue goes dry kind of flat taste. No appetite for eating basically and I have to battle once again this one again among the hordes of life battles that I am fighting against as if fate just wants me to go down for good.

But I am not giving up and I had came this far of my life just for me to be able to see the other side, of what is waiting for me over there. Looking back from where I did begin my journey it is surprising that II had conquered and surpassed many milestones, mainly surviving time and then telling tales about how I did get this too far.

Now that I had gone this far I will try to give it a shot and pray that my body won't give up on me. If my body will give up then who am I to protest? If it is my fate to be then of let it, and actually I am so overdue that I should have been a compost heap a long time ago. But I still want to see a little inch of my remaining life until finally God will have the last say and I just have to submit. But the fight is still on.