I struggled with the same thoughts at some points too, I came to the conclusion that I had to write one way or another and that I'd rather share it because it could help someone else. I found that dealing with depression and addiction are actually quite similar for me personally: Do I have a problem? If no, then what am I wasting time thinking about. If yes, then can I do anything about it? If yes, do something, if no, then there's no point worry about something I can't change. I'm glad you shared this and I wish you the best on your journey. :) Hopefully some of this resonates and helps you and as far as steemit goes, it's going to take time and effort from a lot of people to change the centralization of power, but we can only control what we control. :)