Sad thoughts from a Krakovian Laundry room

in #steemfest6 years ago (edited)
I'm an emotionally detached person. Moving around countries so often, meeting new people - and bonding with them - every other day, sharing experiences and having meaningful conversations with freshly made friends over the last two years made me be that way.

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Think about it, it eventually gets old, you get tired of saying goodbye to a lover, a friend, a place or an experience so often. One can only endure so much pain or ache of constant farewell and, it gets to a point where you simply stop being emotional about it and take things as they come, try to get the most out of the experience and move on as soon as it's over.

I've been able to do that for the past year - yep, my first year of traveling was full of heartaches and sad goodbyes, I had to learn for the 2nd year - and somehow I'm able to compartmentalize emotions (or not feeling them at all) when it comes to saying goodbye. I focus in being here and now and I don't even think about the past or the future regarding friends, family, lovers, places or experiences.

I was doing a great job until I met you, you bunch of weirdos.

I was expecting this Steemfest to be different than the one I attended in Lisbon but man, I didn't expect it to be completely and astoundingly different.

First of all - and this is only my point of view, I have no data to back this up - last year was a Whales, devs and investors Steemfest with the occasional dolphin and minnow; this year, everywhere I looked I saw a minnow having a conversation with a community leader and a small dolphin. This was the people's Steemfest if you may. All the community focused Steemians, the engagers, the high quality content creators were here.

If you ask me, that is one of the most positive things I take from these 5 days. The Core of the community - not the coin - came from all over the world to create new relationships, strengthen old alliances, share a project or idea and especially to meet all the people behind the username.

This five days felt as meeting old friends, I even felt among family at one point.

As long as we, the community core stay committed and focused in growing Steem, I don't care if another million users come and go, because we'll still be here thriving to make Steem the best version of itself it can be. The quitters will come back eventually.

On the other hand, I feel sad. I couldn't be emotionally detached regarding this event and the people who were part of it and right now, while I'm doing my laundry in front of my hostel a few blocks from the Qubus and the main bar area (you wouldn't know about what area I'm speaking about, right?) I realized I'm going to be very nostalgic about these week with you, Steemians.

I would say I miss you, but one can only miss something or someone that can actually come back or be again. But Steem Fest 3 is never coming back, is not a girlfriend you miss because she left for a month, it's not a city you'll come back to. SF3 will never occur again; Krakow will never have 350 Crypto crazies roaming around the city with a Yellow scarf around their necks; Poland can't ever be the same and I will never be the same.

So yeah, I can't say I'll miss you. What I can say, and I think its way more painful, is that I'll feel nostalgic about these few days with you. I will wake up some days feeling a chronic nostalgia about Krakow and about how we changed paradigms and proved that yes, even a bunch of strangers whose only interaction is through a blockchain based social media, can become friends and to some extent, become a family.

Thank you all for attending, thank you all for the beers shared, thank you for the conversations and most importantly, thank you for the daily tens of hugs I got from you.

You are awesome, weirdos.

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same for me! Working in tourism will do that, you meet so many people and after a while it gets old and you stop making efforts. This was different though, we leave but in a way we stay in touch on the blockchain, so the effort was worth it! I', sure we'll meet again some place else. Enjoy the coffee =)

Wow beautifully written man. Too bad I wasn't at SF3, from what I have seen from the reactions so far the community aspect seems very huge. And I am glad to see that, because I have always said that I have faith in our community, that goes beyond the tech.

Have a safe trip home man.

Hey FT. Eve said she sent you a pic of us having a selfie moment. Dad you couldn't be there. I often wondered if you were hiding in plain view ;-)... But then I knew a few people there who were at sf2 and they did they couldn't see you. You're secret id is safe ;)

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Hahah I saw the picture, it looked fun! Hahah had to laugh about this. I wouldn't hide from you guys if I were there. Or would I? ;)

Beautifully articulated and heart warming post Eric. It's also interesting to hear your perspective on how last year and this year were different.

This was the people's Steemfest if you may. All the community focused Steemians, the engagers, the high quality content creators were here.

I felt like I was surrounded by people with community at heart all the time at SF3. Also, @roelandp locations had me wide eyed with wonder many times... That final banquet was something I'll never forget.

Nostalgia can be a bitter sweet pill to swallow for sure. But the memories, the friends we make and the good times are worth all the nostalgia in the world. Hey man, I somehow never got to have the deep and meaningful with you about nomad travel. If you have time the question I just wanted to ask was 'what your most inspiring adventure was?' if you've already wrote a post about it link drop it to me here as I got a few hours to kill on the flight ;-)

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I was doing a great job until I met you, you bunch of weirdos.

This got me in the feelers.. so fitting. Awwww we will all see each other again.. we need a damn weirdos convention. This week was amazing and it was a pleasure to get to know you a bit.. even though we never got to have a late night just talking about our Steemit crushes 🤔.. there is always SF4 for that.

😘 see you soon

I'm distressed enough and I only really did the day times, you must be distraught. You had to pick the most depressing setting didn't you!

NB if steem takes off that'll be the last fest of this character.... 3000 attendees would be a completely different beast!Nostalgia could well be the most appropriate emotion.

I couldn't handle being the last steemian in Krakow. It's better being back in the UK trawling through new peops' feeds and planning the next year on steem.... on and off the chain!

Don't forget to catch up on sleep asap! Everything seems better after proper sleep.

And I can recommend a flight back sitting next to a Norwegian underwear model... cheered me right up!

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And I can recommend a flight back sitting next to a Norwegian underwear model... cheered me right up!

You lucky sod!

I was born lucky.

Unfortunately my social incompo means I frequently fail to take advantage of it.

Still processing the week!

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How did you find out she's a model?

450 Ginabot's await me, this is going to be brutal!

Strangely, I feel your nostalgia and sadness, as I sip my morning coffee on the left coast of the US of A. I think it's a "nomad" thing, although I am a former nomad.

Yes, you learn detachment, because the endless parade of goodbyes makes it so. But there's also the truth that "you can never go back." I tried "time traveling," back to old haunts... but they can never be the same because WE can never be the name; then the realization that we're not trying to return to a place or people, we are trying to return to a feeling, and it's a fleeting and gossamer thing that drifts away on the winds of passing time, blown out to sea somewhere to fall as rain into an ocean from which it becomes inseparable.

Then, occasionally, there are "landmarks" that take us by surprise... clearly SF3 was one such. So thank you for sharing this.

My nomadic days ended around 2003, but I would not trade those experiences for anything, including a more stable set of life circumstances.

Fuck, this is sad. As is the picture - what is it about empty laundry rooms that is so depressing?

I would say I miss you, but one can only miss something or someone that can actually come back or be again.

Hmm you think? I would say you can miss a dead person, but that would liken Steemfest or even us to something that's dead and that's just so fucking sad.

It can't come back, but maybe that's why it was so beautiful? Because it was this very finite period of time that we shared? :)

Shudang that was a poweful babble lol.

Ya mon, any1 who attended is/will be feeling similar nostalgia .

I realy enjoyed when we met in Toronto & you made this comparison of finally meeting steemians in person as similar to catching up with old friends.

For me That really describes the sentiment between this comunity and it’s stuck with me as a great way to explain the interaction to my peers who aren’t on steem since then.

Looking forward to the next time we can all hang!

awwwww I'm saddd reading this. I was actually thinking today how i missed the last few days and wish everyone can be together every weekend. I'm sure we will meet again and may become a weirder bunch with extra fun!!

All the community focused Steemians, the engagers, the high quality content creators were here.

I love this observation @anomadsoul and spending time with you.

Please consider yourself massively hugged and don't forget to look me up should you ever pass this way. 😍

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