I feel like you. I was born in the Netherlands but I see that more as a coincidence. My looks are not Dutch (blond) so discrimination it was. There are a lot of things we only see abroad through the eyes of a tourist and if in our own country we are lucky we easily believe everyone is. It's strange how our brain works.

I agree with you that any place is good if the money is present (even the own country because we can buy it LOL)

I never had good experiences in Austria. They discrimate and the drivers are crazy they try to push you off the road and once a truckdriver followed me through the mountains because according to him I drove not fast enough and he tried to push me off the...
Also if I cross the border I should always show my ID, no idea where those open borders are but they don't exist for me

Once I arrived at the airport Schiphol with two of my children and at passport control they said I should prove they were mine and show their birth certificate (seriously I take a plane if I kidnap blond children in Africa?

The only kind people in Austria I met were the owners of an Italian restaurant. How sad is that? It's good to know the stories about the Austrians are not made up. I remember how they years ago still guarded the borders with guns, no way we could do that.

Perhaps we are souls born in the wrong country and we have to learn something (injustice). I will never sing the anthem (the text is dumb) or wave with a flag it makes me feel uncomfortable and I don't see any point in doing such a thing for a country that never liked me.

If it comes to that it's good to be an adult, at least that's how I feel it. A bit of heaven inside the own walls and shut the world outside.

I don't believe my children have the idea they will make a career and neither did I. I also don't care. We have plenty of hobbies and things we like to do so the job we have is only meant for the basic costs of living and we can share them together.

I truly hope you find some fulfillment in what you undertake. I know out of experience and so does the youngest now that even if the money is not enough a few good colleagues make a huge difference. I am happy she is not depressed now and finds her way. Last year I had to travel many times over to Germany to help her. That was quite a burden not forget to mention the high costs.

A wonderful week to you and thank you for the good talk.