Hmmmmmn. I love this topic. If you feel like you're the only one trying to live a holy life and facing the relentless demonic, worldly and fleshly opposition that normally comes with such a pursuit, think again. There are millions of Christians all over the world, and all of them are given the all-consuming goal to be holy and set apart unto the Lord. All of them face the same temptations that you do. God can never abandon you. Do not relent.