Oh my! I feel sad reading this. I'm in fact close to tears. I'm sorry for all you have to go through simply because you want to make people happy. People who are Filled with negativity and insatiable wants. I'm deeply sorry. I think this can be managed. Maybe you should focus on clearing just old debts for now. Don't make new commitments so you don't push beyond your limits to breaking point. It's bvious you're pushing yourself too hard already dear @dimimp. Don't just quit please. 😢😢😢