What if I could turn back my life clock - ¿Y si pudiera volver atrás el reloj de mi vida
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Three days ago I had another pretty bad heart attack. Four years ago I was diagnosed with a severe heart failure and I was already on the so-called HTX list (transplant list for a new heart).
My coronary vessels and the implanted CRT-D 2014
The last time I asked myself more and more often: "If I could start again from the beginning, would I approach my life differently?
Basically, I had a really cool life until I was diagnosed with the disease. At 15 I had already earned more money through small businesses than my mother received monthly in wages. At the age of 17 I started to make costume jewellery which I sold all over the GDR in any city centres. The profit margins were amazing. I didn't have to pay taxes because I couldn't register a business. As I was striving for something bigger, I applied to leave the GDR and was even represented by Attorney Vogel. Some of you from the GDR will know something about the lawyer's name. When departure was granted, the border was opened exactly one week later. Right after the opening of the border nobody wanted to buy my jewellery any more. But I was able to bring car boot loads full of cigarettes into the promised land for East Germany money and sell them there for hard D-Mark. At every post office it was then possible to exchange the D-Mark for East money again at a rate of one to ten. This too did not interest anyone in the first few months. Let poor Ossi earn a few Deutschmarks :-) In the next few years, until my 40th birthday, I certainly had 15 different jobs, businesses or companies. From the owner of a small car dealership to the owner of a furniture store, leaseholder of several premises to finally running a specialist wholesaler for satellite technology. I've done pretty much everything. Even in the red light milieu I worked for a while and was an economist in two very special establishments.
A cigar for 30€ and the Rolex on your wrist :)
All the companies and businesses I've run have dropped more or less money. The big problem was always that after the companies had run, I just didn't feel like it anymore. I've always enjoyed building something out of nothing. When it was over, I'd lost interest.
I have certainly experienced more until my 40th birthday than many a person in three lives. Made a fortune or two but spent even more on the other side.
When I turned 40, I figured, what was all this for? Villa, Porsche, Rolex on your wrist? It's all bullshit. I didn't realize how my then five-year-old son grew up. Every day 12-14-16 hours in the company, seven days a week. The ubiquitous money lust had to be satisfied. One night sitting in the company again, I thought you didn't have all your cups in your closet. Wrote an e-mail to someone who has always been interested in my company and sells it without further ado. Within 14 days as far as it went everything turned into money, the house completed a large motor home bought and we were already on the road for six years. All the barriers behind me have basically been broken. Nowhere registered or deregistered, nothing regulated and our lawyer instructs everything more or less important for us to do.
Flashanimation of the internet presence of my former company. Something like that cost a lot of money.
The time we spent together in the motorhome through Europe was the best time of my life. Since my son is a freelancer, so he never attended school, we were able to spend a lot of time together as a family. It's all been 13 years. For a little over four years now I know that I have fallen seriously ill with my heart and will certainly no longer experience a round birthday.
The first years we have been with an almost 9 meters motorhome (Niesmann + Bischoff Flair 8000i), an off-road vehicle, an Ami Van and a boat on the way. Always had friends to take the cars and the boat to where we wanted it.
Always had only the most necessary things with you at camping, Jägermeister machine, ice cube width, 2x10 litre beverage dispenser and other nonsense :)
We always took the Ami Van for short trips when we were not more than a week away from our base camp. The back seat could be extended electrically to a bed. I could never separate myself from the car and even today I have stored it in a hall. Too many memories that connect me to the van.
School a little different ...
This all sounds really great, doesn't it? Some people would envy my life. Except of course my health :-)
But I also had a huge crush, today I drive an old Opel Movano and a Suzuki Ignes that has had its best days for a long time. They both take me from A to B.
What would I do differently if I could turn back time, say 15 years?
Not much, really!!!!
All the money I spent on my cars, motorhomes, and the boat, and the real estate I finally sold at a loss, I would use differently today.
It would be the starting capital for a multi-generation residential property that I would found.
A meeting place for free spirits: No matter what age, gender, political opinion or faith. The older ones, who have incomes, finance the younger ones who are in the process of building up something. If you let a free spirit develop as it wants to, the time comes when it can contribute something to the community. I see it with my son who was never under the duress of a school. He will certainly go his way and he already has, with almost 18 years, several possibilities to generate an income.
A community where everyone cares for each other, even in old age or in case of illness. No one is left alone but also everyone has the possibility to withdraw.
Monogamous living would be more of a hindrance. You have so much love and affection for other people that a monogamous decoupling is rather hindering. And no, I'm not talking about free love, great debaucheries and orgies.
The joint raising of children, the implementation of projects; the focus must be on cooperation. Love, affection and understanding for everyone has nothing to do with sex.
Everything created and worked out is available to everyone. Everyone has the right to express his opinion and to make suggestions. But ultimately, there has to be a decision-maker in charge.
Unfortunately, I know from experience that there are situations where decisions have to be made that a group simply cannot make. Endless discussions that end in disputes are usually the beginning of the end of such projects.
The problem is that from childhood you experience a drill that accompanies you all your life. Very few can break these guidelines imposed by society.
Basically not much that I should have done differently in my life. Everything else, also the quite wild times I have behind me, I would not want to miss.
Maybe it is because of my health situation, getting older or the idea of my own limited future.
But maybe it's not too late :-) A few euros are still under the pillow and perhaps one should implement such a project simply.
Maybe someone will be found later to build a community according to my guidelines.
If I read the lines myself now, I wonder why I wrote all this down. But since I have always given what seems important to me and I am in the fortunate position to have no consideration for anything and no one I let you participate in my lives and trains of thought a little :-)
Greetings from Greece your Guru @greece-lover
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