Navigational Error

i am a captain
of no consequence...

• but i did set sail somehow -
  on your big ocean - and now
  [i fear i am adrift...]

it all happened so quickly...
that my heart braided
into starlit cords -
one palm silhouetted night
and
i bungeed over
your cliff.

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[But then...]

• you were the saline healing waves.
  (back and forth - against me.)
  you were that ocean
• i wanted
  a permanent boat for.

you were that underwater
[sea secret]
i had yearned...
to at last
explore.

and There you called to me
from my T.V. ...on the airwaves...
(long before they knew this science)
along the sub-visible waves of light.

that was Merciful aeons
before my searching molecules collided

• then compounded
  the quantum reaction
  of that ether laden night.

There! you stood at my door;

• just like Moses
  and some secret physics
  just parted my heart.

and then i just acquiesced to
your presence
[something precious]
and this - (i think)
is the hardest part.

and now my Crimson atoms split
begging to drown the madness
or perhaps some pursuant sadness
frothing at your back ...

and i stammered:
Quick! Run across -
...to that promised land (doubtless)
before those unkind doubts
attack.

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But i am just Laurence of Indio
after tortuous hot sandy distance;
here welcoming your verdant gardens

• making love to the banks of
  this cool lapping Nile.

how could i be blamed?
(a parched traveler)
having scarcely tasted
simply for staying my brow...
cooled somehow
[beneath your attentions’ shade]
awhile?

...But then;
i am no clever navigator in this:
(my mariner’s accident.)
and i know that i am lost
on this vast oceanic drift.

and so just as it began...
now this heart unravels
those beautifully braided
starlit cords.
now i hold back my cries
and i fall - un-tethered
down this rocky cliff.

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