This is an honest and well rounded description. I feel that this approach applies to all peak experiences with plant medicines and strong spiritual practices. You have raised a very interesting point, which is that we want to be in a state of complete freedom and openness and seek to use these tools, and commune with these spirits to 'get' there.

It's a good goal to recognize and move into, we all want to be in this bliss state - that is what the human wants. Yet it's not so simple as to just do the things that give us that feeling, because it needs to be embodied in all aspects and at all times to be a real solution.

Some people might say that suffering is just a part of life, but it's more that it exists in order to push us toward our spiritual growth. We are not meant to permanently inhabit suffering, in my opinion it's just a stepping stone. It's like the spirit shows us the potentials, and gives us the guidance to return again to our original state - as that wide open blissful being. I totally agree with you, it's our own responsibility to make the changes and do the necessary work to move into a new way of being.

I like how up front you are about how uncomfortable that process can really be - especially in the beginning. When we make it through the discomfort, the harsh lessons give us a greater perspective.