Your Ego Has You in a Headlock.
I am saying that the process of life progressing from the past into the future in a one-dimensional timeline is an illusion of the Ego. The ego, through memory associations, has formed a convincing model that seamlessly combines the past you with the current one, leaving the impression that you are in some way defined by your past results. The Ego then projects forward from your interpretation of your past to show you what you could be in some future moment. Unfortunately, this projection for many of us with low self-opinion does not allow us to contemplate greatness. Which is ironic, being that we created this opinion from the interpretation of events that occurred when we were ill-equipped to analyse the complex situations happening to us. Of course, as more events are connected through linear time we accept this model as our only reality and this can be rationalised using the science of genetics. This somehow explains that your potential was set at conception by your lineage. Yet if continue to believe this explanation in isolation of critical thought you miss the opportunity to create from a blank page in this very moment irrespective of what has gone before.
This Ego model is great if it is used as intended as it releases your creativity to expand your experience while adding new skills to the automatic model. The model can work to your benefit when you realise that time is an illusion of relativity that must only be used to review what is not working. It is not intended to act as a judge of your potential. This is an erroneous lie perpetuated by the science of genetics and evolution which while likely applying to the human body they do not apply to the human mind. It is like saying that a wave and a particle are the same when in fact a wave is unlimited in it's potential while a particle is somewhat determined in its role by thought or put another way, a particle is formed from a wave intended from creative thought by the thinker. I like to think of the mind as a perpetual wave to particle generator.
The Ego is a servo mechanism that enables you to try again through trial and error until you attain excellence in the only real moment that can cause any change in matter. That is right now, with an attended and conscious intention. Shaun Whites recent Gold Medal in the Winter Olympic Games in Korea is a testament to this process of attaining excellence through trial and error and overcoming suffering by knowing you have the power already within. This is life in its purest form as God intended. Have fun, explore your limits, push the envelope and reveal what you were gifted at conception through right thought.
In contrast, wrong thought will perpetuate suffering, you may as well go willingly to a horror film that leaves you stiff with fear, over and over. To illustrate this, the emotions of hate and revenge are destructive emotions that create only more suffering for you in this moment, not only that, but it wastes the new shiny moment because you are suddenly asleep to its unlimited possibilities for creation. Instead, you are consumed in a story of your own making, running rampant, with your permission, down a rabbit hole of suffering, conjuring an unreal moment that has no power to expand your reality. Linking past experiences as if they are real, when in fact they are meaningless and have no power other than what you decide to give them, into a web of limitation.
The object of your attention is not affected by your thoughts at all, they are oblivious. Meanwhile, you experience the negative emotions associated with this past event and perpetuate and imprint your suffering on your willing ego, further entrenching your view of yourself as a powerless victim. You have effectively been captured by the negative event because of your constant attention to it. This is an error in the operation of your ego, you have turned it into your enemy. It has taken on the life of your perpetrator. It may even act to destroy you totally and your wrong thought is the cause. What you term as excuses for your condition is simply you believing in an illusion that you have unwittingly created through a misunderstanding of your true identity. You are never faced with any problem you cannot overcome, that is law. All problems are created by the state you are in and can only be fixed by realising you already have the tools to find a solution. Hence the Persian adage "This too shall pass".
Therefore, emotional suffering has no value because it is constructed by your own interpretation of what has happened to you, the victim, while the moment has moved on without you. You must realise that nothing you do now will change one thing in what happened in the previous moment, in reality, it never existed except in your interpretation and we know how inaccurate our individual view of past events, that seemed so real to us, can be. Our Judicial System is expert at revealing how relativity changes interpretation.
The less your awareness of this, the more worn will this rabbit hole become and the more often you will be captured in its painful passages. Capturing you, until you no longer have the power to see the beauty that is yours to enjoy and all you see is imprisonment in a hell of your own creation. Unfortunately, this is the situation most of us have unconsciously created, by years of misuse of our creative potential. We are captured by our constructed personality or ego that is presented to the outside world as our Christian name. All our core beliefs from the past running around unquestioned and packaged up ready to be released unconsciously when we are called!
While you embrace (A subconscious embrace) this core belief as the "you" you see peering back from the mirror, you cannot escape being a victim. It is as much you as your skin or your heart. Others may be able to see that you are a victim but until you do, nothing can change. All the chastising and get over it's will fail as how do you get over yourself, other than self-destruction. Which is, unfortunately, to often the route of choice. It is true that Pigs don't know Pigs stink!
When you realise this, you will be the navigator of your own life rather than the victim of excuses provided by others actions, that you feel have limited your opportunity to achieve. Even if the persecution is real, if you are awake, then to continue to use it as an excuse to accuse and blame others for your current situation is simply being a Martyr. Then you deserve no sympathy because by definition you are getting some payback from continuing to play the victim.
At this point, you will realise that all actions have consequences but those consequences have no meaning they are just to be overcome with a more enlightened response. Everything you do is a lesson in an expansion of your understanding of your relationship with everything else around you. Nothing is wrong, as everything is as it is intended to be in this moment. How could it be anything else? After all:
“The Moving Finger writes; and, having writ,
Moves on: nor all thy Piety nor Wit
Shall lure it back to cancel half a Line,
Nor all thy Tears wash out a Word of it.”
― Omar Khayyám
To think otherwise is to invite neurosis into your life as plainly seen with the election in 2017 of Donald Trump as President of the USA. One year on, people are still coming to terms with the way things are as compared to the way they think things should be in order for them to be right in their interpreted world.
Meanwhile, around them, there are others who accept the way it is now, and embrace their own choice to be happy and move forward knowing that they are conceived with the power in every cell of their body to overcome and conquer all obstacles no matter how immense they may seem. Suffering is a construct of comparison, of a feeling of injustice, of loss, of things being different to how we imagine they must be if we are to be happy. In this state, you will pass away unhappy. This view of your World needs to be replaced with a better one.