Wholeness Manifested

I made a post before about how wholeness felt like a balancing act, but as that balancing act starts to seem more natural and doesn't really require thought or effort to maintain, it's interesting how things change. I have felt complacency and hesitation at many points in my life and I have had those periods of time were I was afraid to make a decision in any direction because I would either miss out on something, lose something, or didn't have the faith in myself that things would work out. I also talked before about that urge to leave or go or change throughout this process and it feels like that was either an illusion to distract from the spiritual change or it was a physical manifestation of the spiritual change and learning how to control that was part of the process. So what's different?

It feels more and more like I can do everything that I could ever want to do, but at the same time I don't feel like I have to do anything. It's interesting because I can recall previously having to question my own morals or intentions when I would do things, but I can see now that it wasn't ever about having the wrong intentions or morals, it was about not knowing myself fully. Wholeness is probably about more things than I fully grasp at this point or who knows maybe it's really just this simple. The point is there is no compulsion to do anything and I can make the decisions that I know I want to make and there is zero feeling of lack of any kind. I don't need anyone or anything to make me whole and I feel able to influence how I complete my story. Namaste.