Secrets of her 1 (spanish and english)

Should I be crying? Screaming? Hysterical? I did not understand the effect of his words, I did not react as expected, I just answered "Why did not you tell me before?" I did not imagine that was what would come out of my mouth when I heard him say "I do not love you anymore, do not suffer anymore, get away and be happy". The cold settled in me, a surprising calm. A calm that terrifies me, there is not a tear, just calm, just a vacuum. What the hell happens with me? I do not know. This way you feel when you lost someone?

¿Debería estar llorando? ¿Gritando? ¿Histérica? No comprendo el efecto que hicieron sus palabras, no reaccioné como esperaba, sólo respondí “¿Por qué no me dijiste antes?” no imaginé que eso era lo que saldría de mi boca al escucharlo decir “Ya no te quiero, no sufras más, aléjate y sé feliz”. El frío se instaló en mí, una calma sorprendente. Una calma que me aterroriza, no hay ni una lágrima, solo calma, solo un vacío. ¿Qué rayos sucede conmigo? No lo sé. ¿Así se siente perder a alguien?