The station girl trilogy ( the last script)

The station girl…basically all writings was about her in the past 4 months .give a writer a pen and an inspiration, miracles shall start to happend .
All my focus was on her , every thing i think of or do , is related in direct or distorted to her , my hopes and dreams , my fantasies…
She was there all over .there was no escape ,only obedience and subjugation , if i would describe the thing that happened i woud probably say “and like an evil witch she was , she put a spell on me ,polluting my mind , possessing my soul .
Putting my lonely heart in the grasp of her cold hands , squeezing it , abducting it …but that dear is my most valuable possession “get back here ! give me what is mine !“ these are only words my subconcious mind would say .but i was crippled and paralized .

I was a ZOMBIE , i might exist in this life but my existance is only condemned to her .
I m not going to say much , because i have nothing to say actually , except , well played snow-white , you got me, Congratulations.
But, a special young man has fallen for you , some gifted young man who loves to write about stuff.
That is actually a bloody curse, a curse no magic could break .

You will only remember me as a shadow , a doomed spirit haunting you every where you go , every move you make , i ll be there ; i shall cause you no harm and mean no harm , coz i am not a deamon . nope, if you thought so ? you must be insane , how could i hurt a face who maid me look at life from a diffrent angle ? of course all the credit goes to you , making me a better man that i am today , a man with new vision and bright future , i could nt explore my gift as a writer and a poet except for you .
And like the shattered glass my heart breaks ,each piece a mile away from the other , who could fix the damage you caused ? how could i let go of the pain you brought upon me ?
The irony is that i could dream while you could nt , you were in my dreams while i was nt in yours .

BUT, i have learned , i learned a valuable lesson , i could teach to each single man on the planet . the misleading path of love .
Standing on the broken glass barefooted and there i was,just standing there for quite long time , and time was nt an issue and my bleeding feet was nt an issue as well , because i was distracted from the pain i was going through , seeing you each day in the STATION maid me heal but that was only a nightmare disguised in the form of a beautiful dream , … how stupid !
Every believer such myself is a stupid being .stupid love , stupid me, everything turns out to be stupid since now that the red ribbon you put gently on my eyes , it smelled good and felt good , it was so soft and glorious , but it was keeping me from seeing , blocking my vision for a long time , i was blinded by the thought of the two of us could be together .
And now you will probably say “hey ! we could remain friends“
The famous sentence you all girls say , do you know what does it mean ? it means putting stitches on a scattered crack . thats what remain friends does .

Why you put me through all this , knowing that you are in love with someone else , was it all fake ? everything ? fake smile ! fake chat ! fake feelings ! was it ?
How could you deceive me , that is treason !
Well, technically i did nt say i love you -thank god for that- and i technically did nt got rejected . but hey, dont play dummy sweet girl , you knew exactly how i feel you knew that i had feeling for you it was so obvious , but you kept it a secret , a filthy little secret , you could just have said “go away weirdo i am taken ! “ that would have been sad , i ll be upset but not for long , i ll move on , and non of this would have happened .
And after a whole scholar year i discover the ugly truth .the fact of your manipulated attitude . i might look like a monster , but you are the real monster sweety ,
The raged beast , it is the heart who reflects our image not the other way around .
Did you think that your perfect skinny body and the slender face of yours will make you the beauty and i am the BEAST ! ? silly girl indeed , you are nothing but a snow-white . i dont know why i keep telling you this , snow-WHITE all over again , because that’s what you were suppose to be and i am the price who comes from far away looking for you to save you from your own self , giving you the kiss that revived you .

But you ruined it , you ruined a children’s story , an innocent one , no deception , no lies , in that story ,
THAT could have been US , and you ve got only yourself to BLAME

The arrows of love she was named … i guess that i am aware now why did they named you arrows .
And like an arrow she flew , wide in the open air , breaks in the high winds ,UP in the sky . the sun was in my eyes so i could nt see it coming to fall by the means of gravity , to strike ! with no mercy into my unarmed heart , and there it goes , sharper than the knife , the edges of the arrow YINGERS through my thin skin and my flesh …to… my HEART
And that’s how i died.