Dear Diary: My Face Still Grows Bigger And Still Hoping That It Would Stop

I intend to post my health progress particularly about my appearance as it really is gross and grotesque-looking. I look so bad really that my brother can't even look at me now considering that he is a real brother to me and he is also my companion all through the years that we are attending our church activities almost bi-weekly. I tried to converse with him a few months ago and it is funny that he looks away when I talk to him.

Having this kind of appearance is pretty bad. Socially I am close to zero performance except here at steemit where I do and comfortable to expose myself but in Facebook I do not do this kind of sharing, I am more reserved there than here. They will just pity me and all that with no positive results for me. They would even block or unfriend or unfollow me simply because I look terrible and will just mess their wall feeds. That is what I think about that social media.

But here in steemit I am finding love, care, and support. That is why I am more open here to tell my health problems, wants in life, fears about things in my life, frustrations, dreams, aspirations, and whatever comes to my mind as I feel and see that I will feel better of myself if I do and share those and not get embarrassed at all or fell threatened unlike in other social media or forum for that matter.

But as of today I just want to express my fears and worry still about my appearance and I feel that the changes still progresses. My hope is that it won't be much worse that I am thinking that it could do in the months to come because my appearance now just exponentially progressed in the course of just half a year. My face still grows bigger but my back pains are now unnoticeable, in fact I am not at pain now and is just concerned about my Leontiasis and hoping that itt would stop on it's tract once and for all.