I love the PHIL, I have had many good times there. Everyone was very nice to me.
I'm sorry about your problems on STeemit and your reputation. This is not good. I would recommend you create a new account for yourself, then move all your new activity to it. it will make things easier for you.

we like to be anonymous on steemit, because it makes it easier to enjoy without using real names. So don't use your real name and read my posts on how to create new accounts. Read other's posts, you will need a new email and new phone number, and you need to use a different browser on your computer or phone, ALL DIFFERENT than the first time you signed up.

And then stay anonymous, and listen to people if they warn you they have issues with what you are posting; we all have to learn to get along, and I hope you can find your way here and enjoy.