Triggered by my Significant Other

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Much love, Ghost Writer.

My fiancé and I have been engaged for less than a year... and we've been together for over 4 years.

We've been struggling recently... he sulks when he doesn't get his way... and he hasn't been getting his way for a while because of my secret.

He injured his back playing basketball and has now gained a lot of weight. With that weight gain he's slowly morphing into the large, hairy, disgusting great-uncle of mine that molested me as a child.

Of course I realized there were similarities when we first met, but he was charming and funny and I put it aside... but with the new big belly and shaved head it's extremely triggering for me and I barely want to be anywhere near him.

He knows something is up, and he's not happy about it... but how do you tell your fiancé that they remind you of being sexually abused?

I never wanted to tell him... I haven't told anyone... but I can't live like this forever.
I'm honestly not sure if I can ever get past this, every time I see him naked it transports me back to the worst moments of my life.