When you do not understand what God is doing, keep looking for it, not approaching you, but looking for it. Keep going to church, keep praying, keep reading the Bible, stay dedicated to God. Your relationship is not going to be perfect. In all relationships with God, there will be knots, but he is always looking. It may not look so good, but after a while, you will not feel farther from God, but closer. Do not fear that people see the knots of your relationship with God. Sometimes you ask God, but come back and persecute him, come back and believe in him, come back and look for him, come back and serve with all your heart.

Interesting reflection. The message is very edifying.