Hope Beyond Brokenness
As I sat in that rental truck, that I was now living in, over 3 years ago, I vividly remember a conversation of despair and hopelessness:
I said to the person with me, "you know I can't ever see my life without drugs again. The inability to be a functional human being aside from using seems utterly impossible! I have to use, I can't deal with the depression, just lying in the bed, unable to move, eat, or speak. I have loss all hope of being normal again, of feeling normal again. I guess this is how my life will end."
This was the very real and candid conversation just over 3 years ago. My depression was fueling my addiction, and my addiction was fueling my depression. It was a vicious circle of destruction to my soul, and to all who cared for me.
I share this today because I was led to remind everyone who is experiencing any form of hopelessness: Whether its depression, broken relationships, divorce, child custody issues, illness, loss, self hate, or suicidal thoughts---
You will and can overcome by the grace of God, and no matter how dark it gets, I promise there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I am praying for you and pulling for you! We are one in spirit! This message is for you, God is speaking to you!!
Much love to all!
Anything you're good at contributes to happiness. Have a good day ^^