@crazycow, so sorry to hear of the passing of your father. Even though your dad had passed, the happy memories the two of you shared will remain fresh in your mind forever. It is truly difficult to face that fact that a loved one is no longer present but with each hint of remembrance that special person is always by your side. I'm sure that if your father were alive, he would in comfort know that you have gone on with you life, living everyday to the fullest, always thinking of him. When my best friend died a few years ago from pancreatic cancer that spread from the lungs, I missed the chance to say good bye to her. Regretted it till now. She is always on my mind, all the things we did as children, I will always cherish.

Going on with you life being happy doesn't mean forgetting. If you want to continue missing him, it's okay. But please continue with your life, do not let time pass without enjoying every moment.

You spoke of your mother being diagnosed with Breast Cancer. How is she doing. If she is still here with you, please visit Mr. Gary Wilson's post if you like, he too is battling Cancer. On his post I have listed some of the things people can do to 'reverse' their Cancer. Please see the link below.

https://steemit.com/introduceyourself/@garywilson/cancer-my-sentence-to-death-whether-i-ultimately-live-or-die-my-desire-is-to-publish-a-weekly-post-on-steemit-and-share-the#@eclecticity/re-exoexo-re-garywilson-cancer-my-sentence-to-death-whether-i-ultimately-live-or-die-my-desire-is-to-publish-a-weekly-post-on-steemit-and-share-the-20160811t092138025z

Because a family member has passed, many think that they may develop Cancer. Cancer is diet and lifestyle caused. The video below will give you more insight on what doctors don't tell you about Cancer. It's called the 'Truth About Cancer'. ⬇️ Wishing you all the best. 🌟