Wow brother , I really loved what you said , cause I feel , my past or I should say ..the incidences that has happend in my past are actually holding me back alot. I feel if certain things didn't happen , I would have been better off somehow. Again the whole thing about forgiving all those who hurt me , I really agree with you , cause every time when someone hurt me , I couldn't forgive them , and it just ate me up. And then one day , I couldn't deal with all that drama anymore , ....but now when I look back I feel so immature. And now I'm trying really hard to be a better person , spiritually ... So I make sure I do forgave everyone , and everything you said really makes 💯 sense...I hope God helps you also with your breakthrough. I hope everyone is good at home.