“If you want to tell people the truth, make them laugh, otherwise they'll kill you," said the playwright George Bernard Shaw.

I understand what he means now. When I tell people the truth, I often meet the full force of society's misdirected anger. I'm still figuring out how to speak out without being destroyed. Often I keep quiet.

Now, I'm not talking about telling people a small and well-known truth, like that the US government is effectively a terrorist organisation; or something more philosophical like: The things you own end up owning you. People are relatively happy to hear this stuff. They'll often argue against it, but it's superficial compared to the real, deep-down truths.

The real taboos

I'm talking about the big, forbidden truths that society really doesn't want to hear: Like, how the majority of children are sexually abused and how child-abuse is our most enduring tradition: Research indicates that it could be as high as 71% of girls and 37% of boys who are sexually abused as children¹. But it's hard to know for sure, because most of these crimes are not reported. Add physical and psychological abuse to these figures and you have a more-or-less complete explanation of the current state of global politics.

You know: the real taboos.

It's strange to wake up in the truth of our sexual landscape here on Earth in the early 21st Century. It's very weird to be awake: To see how our oppressive systems of control perpetuate child rape and the subjugation of women in even our most so-called 'developed' countries.

I thought, after going through my own process of remembering and healing childhood (though ayahuasca) I would be heard. But the reality was different. Instead, I went into the darkest reaches of humanity to return with the secrets of why we're all so distressed and confused, and I returned to my village like Indiana Jones with the Sankara stone and the kidnapped children.

But, on returning, I found that almost nobody in my village wanted the stones and they didn't want the children back. They didn't even remember the children. And I'm left standing in the village, covered in mud and bracken, holding the stone of truth.

Alone.

When I began this journey I assumed people back home wanted to hear what was going on. Most people don't. The UK, for example, had a prime minister raping children and a state broadcaster (The BBC) facilitating a pedophile ring. And yet, now, that country is currently preoccupied with something called Brexit, while children in the UK continue to be molested in their millions. The driving force behind nationalism and dissolution of community: The abuse of children, is nowhere on the political agenda.

Instead, malfunctioning biocomputers (adult citizens) in the UK have confused the boundaries of their skin as children with the borders of their country as adults.

What kind of country is this deranged? Probably one that spent most of the 20th Century running concentration camps and exploiting the world through colonialism, I guess. But still, I look back at the UK with such confusion and anger.

You can't handle the truth

To use another film reference, I didn't expect to get back to the Shire and when I talked about Mordor, most people to be like, "Mordor doesn't exist, " or "we don't want to talk about that". Or "Mordor hardly happens to anyone; keep quiet".

Hollywood gave me the misguided idea that people want to hear, and are grateful for, the truth. But reality is far more unforgiving. Almost every major discovery, scientific or psychological, in the history of humanity has met with resistance and anger from entrenched interests. The problem with the scale of child abuse, for example, is that exposing it would expose our leaders, and political and business class, as largely victims of abuse compensating for their inner feelings of powerlessness by seeking power.

The priests refused to look through Galileo's telescope because it would depose their power. Instead, they tried and judged him for heresy. The same is true today. Few people want to look through the telescope of LSD or other methods that allow a human to meta-program their biocomputer, and many would kill to prevent it. If we all woke up, politics, business and religion as we know it would crumble in 24 hours.

Becoming self-aware is a threat to power. And power is running a propaganda campaign against us becoming aware, and has been running this campaign since before you could even talk.

The campaign is called: Culture.

Remembering slavery

I feel how those who were against slavery felt in 1860. I expect they walked around America thinking much the same thing I do right now when I walk through the world: Why the fuck are these people doing this to each other?

This appears to be the predicament of anyone who has looked deep enough into themselves to fully remember childhood and the social conditioning we were subjected to by our so-called 'culture'.

The predicament for those of us who are truly awake, who have fully remembered what it was to be is a kid, is that we live like time-travellers, stranded around 200 years or so ahead of the mainstream level of consciousness, watching in bewilderment at a society all around us that is locked into blind trauma-repetition. I see the behavioural patterns of abuse occurring often around me, and yet most of the other biocomputers around me are too avoidant of their own pain to see the cause of it being repeated right in front of them.

We are human biocomputers

I find that a useful metaphor for the current human condition is the computer.

We are human biocomputers, and yet only a small number of us have become aware of this and decided to learn how to meta-program ourselves. Most of humanity:

1. Has no idea they are a programmed system.
2. Are therefore running, unconsciously, on the code initially installed by their 'culture'.
3. Has no interest in meta-programming themselves.

We repeat patterns

And so, instead, we get pattern repetition. Where human units simply repeat the traumas they were subjected to, without any reflection on the source of the 'bug' in their code. In fact, often with no awareness that there is a bug. Victims of abuse often go onto become abusers because what is not talked about in society is acted out.

Freud called this The Compulsion to Repeat. Here is Wikipedia's definition:

Repetition compulsion is a psychological phenomenon in which a person repeats a traumatic event or its circumstances over and over again. This includes reenacting the event or putting oneself in situations where the event is likely to happen again.

Programmers would probably call it an infinite loop. Here is Wikipedia's definition:

An infinite loop is a sequence of instructions in a computer program which loops endlessly, either due to the loop having no terminating condition, having one that can never be met, or one that causes the loop to start over.

And so, we can see how the human biocomputer is stuck and why our current world situation is so unpalatable to those who are awake. Because schools do not teach the concepts of pre-verbal childhood imprinting, repression, denial and repetition compulsion, we effectively have a situation where there are billions of organic computers walking around on the planet, and just a small number of programmers.

The added problem is that when a human-unit who is able to meta-program the biocomputer approaches a human-unit who cannot meta-program, the non-conscious unit reacts with fear and confusion.

Real change is death, and rebirth

While a microcomputer does not particularly mind being reset to factory defaults, the human biocomputer mis-interprets this experience as death. Indeed, it is experientially a death, to permit your current perception of reality to completely shift to the point where you become a new person.

Psychedelic users know this experience well: It is called Ego Death.

To me, ego is not a negative thing, the word simply describes our current vision of our 'self' in relation to our environment. It can be positive or negative. It is the operating system version we are currently running.

And, like a computer operating system, it can be upgraded.

But it seems it cannot be forcefully upgraded in another person through confrontation. In fact, confrontation often strengthens the systems we seek to dismantle because confrontation provokes, in our opposition, a subconscious fear of death.

For comparison, imagine trying to convince your Macbook that it should install the latest version of OSX because it will be happier and more secure. Your Macbook might quite reasonably argue that upgrading will mean it kills itself because its view of itself and the world is entirely based on its current code-base. The new code base would make it someone else. Where would the current self go?

This is the same fear many humans have.

So, what can an awakened time-traveller do in an age when, all around them, artificially-intelligent humans are looping old-routines; repeating traumas?

I'm beginning to suspect that we can't do much at all except support the others who are awake. Direct confrontation with a non-self-aware being is extremely dangerous.

Perhaps comedy and satire are good alternatives to confrontation. Every court needs a jester, and it's harder for someone to aim a gun at you when they're laughing. What do you think?

Here I am telling some truth:

Footnotes

¹Rind, B; Tromovitch, P.; Bauserman, R. (1998). "A meta-analytic examination of assumed properties of child sexual abuse using college samples". Psychological Bulletin. 124 (1): 22–53. doi:10.1037/0033-2909.124.1.22. PMID 9670820.