Greetings! Good well thought out post!
Death is an interesting thing to me because I perceive it as at least being real. These perceptions and concepts of the ways that we as a civilization live by are all fake but necessary in life to hold society and ourselves together. When that experience is no longer important, one can either choose the lie or choose death. I'll admit, I have thoughts of suicide all the time, but I'm too cowardly and I wouldn't want to put my children through that after having already lost their mother.