Thanks for the post. I feel I'm stuck in a negativity cycle myself. I'm fully aware of things that I can change and what I need to do to change, but I seem to hold onto the negative thoughts like it's the one ring . The universe is telling me in subtle ways what I need to do and just when I decide to do it, I wake up with an existential crisis. I really am a lot better off than I was before my wife was killed and I wish she could see me now, so I just have to muster up the willpower that you have.