Slowing the noggin-vortex

I'm feeling a little wrinkly...No, it's not old age creeping up on me and starting to show on my face; I mean inside. I am going through a period of feeling flat, uninspired and a little drained emotionally. It's common among humans to feel this way of course, just not so much with me; I'm usually able to turn these things around before they go this far. Not this time though.

I'm not sure what it means...Does the way I feel confirm that I am, in actual fact, human? Probably. I had hoped I was from another planet but maybe I'm a boring, run-of-the-mill human after all.

So, this wrinkly feeling I have...Why is it so? What has caused it and why can't I shake it? All good questions I guess and ones I have been asking for a couple of days. Asking myself.

The image here is one of me ironing the wrinkles out of a work shirt. Yes, I know, impressive that I know how to iron right? Anyway, wouldn't it be nice if we had the ability to run a hot iron over our brain to straighten out the thoughts whizzing around in there? I mean, pushing a hot iron around in ones' noggin has got to be good for you right?

Well, I'm not so sure. But how do we make sense of all the things buzzing around in there? How do we slow the spinning noggin-vortex of life-stuff enough to pluck one out and deal with it? How, indeed, do we deal with just one thing when usually each one is linked intrinsically with one, or more, of the others. It's a complex matter and when these things start to collide and crash into each other a couple of small things can spiral out of control into a destructive twister of challenges that spins so fast it's difficult to even see one from the other.

I think that's where I am at the moment; Standing outside of my head looking at an impossibly fast spinning noggin-vortex of life-stuff that seems simply too difficult to straighten out. It's also complicated enough that just thinking about it brings a feeling of hopelessness and despair in respect of beginning the task of unravelling the mess. It's left me feeling quite uninspired.

I had a chat with a friend this morning who made me feel a little better. She gave me an attitude adjustment which I needed and she actually quoted me (back to me) by saying I needed to take a breath, stand back and just evaluate where I am, (emotionally), where I've been recently and where I want to be in the future. How can I argue with my own advice? That's what I like about positive thinkers and influencers...They don't necessarily offer solutions, only reminders of how to come around to my own deductions and ultimate decisions. They don't offer unsolicited advice on what they would do, only the necessary support when it comes to finding the impetus to take the first step towards a better future.

I know I can't mope around being wrinkly for the rest of my life, and nor do I want to. But unfortunately I cannot just iron them out like a shirt. I have to take an active role in working through how I feel, the reasons why I feel this way and put some measures in place to assist in preventing it again in the future. I have to take responsibility and ownership for myself.

The trick is slowing the noggin-vortex enough to isolate and identify something I can affect. There's no point worrying about something I cannot impact and so I need to control the controllable things, address, deal with and shelve them before reaching for the next. Evaluating (like my clever young friend suggested) is important also as often in doing so one can identify a big rock and by eliminating, or dealing with it first, can slow or diminish the noggin-vortex even further. It's a process of isolate, identify, evaluate and effect which is going to move me forward.

So, I better get to work slowing the noggin-vortex right now. It's been good writing this post as it's allowed me to go back over what I already know, the concept of evaluation, ownership and responsibility and therefore brings clarity of thought. I'd like to thank my friend who offered and deployed an attitude adjustment also as that's sometimes exactly what's required. Thanks for being a great influencer. :)