This is... wow, I mean, wow... I've seen it in news, I've heard about it, but to hear it from someone who actually has faced it and survived it... you must be very brave and strong.
I hope you find your way now that you've decided that you've fulfilled your purpose... I'm still shocked, I had traumas during my childhood (most people have them), but your case is just unfair, and I can't believe that it lasted for so many years... I know you endured it and survived it, I know you're strong so I don't grieve for you, I grieve for all those that came before you and after you and weren't capable of enduring it... may they rest in peace knowing you did your best to drag this undesirable element into light...