Oh man, I remember those years. Each time one of my daughters hit an age of significant abuse from my own childhood/memories, I had more issues than normal dealing with it. I didn't even realize it at the time, it was never until after it had passed that I realized what had been the major trigger for me that made me super vulnerable. The worst was when all three daughters hit a significant age that resonated with my own childhood abuse... at the same time we lost our house and had to move back out to the country, a place that looked and FELT just like where I had grown up. It was very very hard to stay in the present, and I can't say that I always handled things correctly, but I did as well as I could and was VERY fortunate that my husband knew when I needed him to take over so I could go regroup.

You are doing such amazing things as a mom. Being so aware of yourself and your needs for getting through things like this, caring for yourself whilst at the same time being sure to care for your daughter and make sure that you are parenting her from a safe place. I love reading about your journey and I'm here, mostly from the other side of it cheering you on. Your strength is amazing, your self awareness will be one of your best healing tools... and your child will grow up feeling safe and loved.