Can't worry about the Steem Pool when South Africa has just experienced it's own 'Night Of The Long Knives"

Truthfully, I'm far past worrying about anything much at all. I attribute this to constant stress I've experienced since about 2003. I've realised I've done my best, but also made mistakes. Pretty much everything happening in the world is alarming at the moment.

I am here, and carrying on because I made kids. This is a big responsibility, which I take seriously. I have many happy moments in my life. My husband and our progeny are pretty much awesome. Then there is wine. And food. I have a serious financial situation, but will it end me, or will the world "end" (as we know it) before then? Who knows, I'm going to eat the avocado pears I bought from a private seller as the supermarket price is sky high.

We need to support each other, trade with each other, and realise that it is only through interpersonal relationships that have any hope of enabling us to move forward. Oh yes, our beloved Zuma re-shuffled the cabinet last night. The rand/dollar exchange rate is starting to plummet as yet even more blatant thieves have been appointed to positions of power. I'm trying to care, but can't muster up enough emotional energy. False - I'm not trying to care.

We are slaves to corporations and governments. We have given up our power. When will there be enough of us to do anything about this? I'm all for brave stands, but not if it puts my family at risk. And there is our issue. What would we do anyway? I've always been quite curious about that. For now I gratefully accept the little tidbits thrown my way to make my life worth living. Perhaps there is an advantage in knowing the truth of my reality, or maybe those who go through life blissfully unaware of the state of the world are the lucky ones?

A major disaster might provide a reset. Or not. Things might be worse. What can I really do except live and try to be happy sometimes. I am somehow liberated by the fact that I don't really care if I die, except in the way it would affect my children.

Anyhow, Steemit is one of the positive experiences in my life. It's different and fast moving. Changes abound, and I kind of like that. I also like expressing myself in a way I couldn't to most people. Somehow I am relatively comfortable here. The financial rewards are appreciated, but it does go deeper.

Thank you for reading my somewhat random dump of thoughts. Please follow me @onetree, I usually share many cool vintage items. Sometimes other stuff...

and Zuma...I don't care!

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