read your poem yesterday. Felt your pain and love. been thinking about it all day. I am not what you would call religious. I am a child of God. Don't let dumb-asses take what is in your heart from you. I call those religious people ,Pharisee . also known as hypocrites. not my words but Jesus's.
He also said " don't cast your pearls before swines"Learn and understand what that means. I'm not worried about you finding god. He found you. So my brother I would stand side by side with you. Shoulder to shoulder. Be happy and live your life on your terms.