Open Eyed Dozer

I don't know why my brain is wet
Unable to speak - feeling so weak
Dots flying around the crowded space
Can't determine where I am
Shouldn't have done it
Should've been a man

In the corner of the room is a dry warm place
Thinking too much - so much more than I'm supposed to

Exploding vessels in the safety of my skull
One fifty blood cells turned quickly into none
Flying home I missed the wind
Knowing only I was home when my vision twinned

Letting me see my child's future on the last of my flight
Obeying quickly what he's told
Showing respect for the older spirit with wisdom on his breath

Open eyed grown up choosing to feel youthful
Lied to by myself - why should I be truthful
I'm reaching for the star to carry me on
Floating on the edge of sin
Looking for redemption
Swerving clear of temptation
Live in my life - long time going to collect my short comings