THE MEANING OF THIS LIFE ...??? (ORIGINAL POEM)

What is the meaning of this short, cruel life,
when beloved one ''stabs'' you with the knife?
I am totally awake and crying in the night,
to blame her for all this, I do not have the right ...
I was always honest and I never went astray,
I am asking myself, why she did not stay?
I know that everything, for sure, will change,
I am feeling so lost, so down and so strange ...
Outside in the yard is so dark and the wind blows,
will she come back to me, no one knows!!!
I will love her, until the end, until my death,
I miss her whispers and her very lovely breath ...