SECRETS (ORIGINAL POEM)

It is hard for me, at nights, to fall asleep,
at all these little secrets I have to keep ...
In me, there is so much dirt and a lot of pain,
I am hiding myself from the world like a Cain ...
I feel like the Devil, like a big, big monster,
she thinks I am not honest and such a disaster ...
But it is only her, my God, whom I truly love,
my Almighty above knows, how I like this dove!
I will not love another, I will not compromise,
betraying, would be for me death and demise!
With the others myself, I will not torture and bother,
want to be her faithful man and a good, good father!